Breathe Free

A year ago tonight a dear friend of mine, and man I dated as a short summer fling, took his life. 

By far the worst news I have ever received, and what turned into the most excruciating week or so of my life thus far was endured. Despite the pain and grief that was struggled through…. alone… 3000 miles away from anyone whom had even heard of Ross to be of any aide in my ever-continuing sadness, I managed to make it home for the wake, cry until I was as dried up as a prune, and have the most uplifting, enlightening, and REAL dream one could ask for: I got to say goodbye. I got to share one more smile, one more laugh, give and get back one more hug and kiss. 

Across the distance, and despite our differences in soul location-whether on earth, or up in Heaven - I got to say goodbye. 

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It was the best closure anyone could hope for in such an unexpected and horrible situation. 

Since then, I have managed to maintain a true sense of optimism. Whenever life starts throwing curveballs and hardships and I get upset, I remember just how short life can be, and it’s always better to approach EVERYTHING and ANYTHING with a positive attitude. Trust me.

A year later the pain is just as fresh, and just as painful. Today was hard, and tomorrow will most likely be the same, but through the sadness, tears, and reminiscence, I know I will be okay.

Ross: I love you. Thank you for keeping your promise and constantly sending us all happy thoughts, smiles, good feelings and warmth in our hearts.